thetattedstoner:

I still don’t know my purpose on this planet, but I do like smoking weed

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“God, you’re just like dad! You think everything I do has to be for attention! “Oh, he slit his wrists for attention,” “He took all those sleeping pills just to get attention!” I’m never gonna be anything but a black sheep, no matter what I do! I don’t even have to motivation to stay alive, how am I supposed to do a big, life changing turn-around?! I’m glad you don’t like me, when I take those Smiles I got, there’s a high chance I’m gonna die, you’d love being an only child! Mom and dad would love having me out of their lives! All any of you see me as is a fucking burden! Maybe if you treated me like an actual fucking person, we wouldn’t be in this mess,“ he screamed, standing over her. Connor missed the family dynamic he had had before the depression really hit, but as soon as that started, they grew farther apart until they were where they were now. His parents were still close to his sister, but he had distanced himself after finding out they didn’t believe him when he first asked for their help with his suicidal thoughts.

_{she had no idea what “ smiles ” were, && honestly didn’t care. maybe it made her an awful person, but she wanted him to die – at least then she could have a moment of peace without fear of him bursting in && trying to kill her. if she said such things aloud she’d never forgive herself, but she would gladly help force pills down his throat. if he didn’t succeed soon, zoe felt certain she would copy him, if only to get away from his reign of terror.}

_{❝—- how can you expect me to pity you ? ❞ she could feel her heart threatening to tear through her chest as connor moved closer. the venom was gone from her voice now. no, now it just hurt. ❝—- you are the worst thing in my life. you act like all of this is my fault – like i did something to make you suddenly turn psycho. but i didn’t. do you even realize that ? i didn’t do shit to you, connor. you just take it out on me because you know if you ever tried to jump on mom or dad like you do me they’d call the cops. ❞}